26 november 2010 at 9.00 pm .
it hurted . it hurted a lot . more then i ever imagine it would of felt . i held my breath as my tears started to form and spilt . it never goes away . the pain of that fight . that moment we started to forget all our feelings and started to crave for victory . we got mad . our only goal was to hurt one another . we started to say things we didn't mean . started to scream stuff we usually never say . we started not to care of the consequences . enough was enough . i quit playing hard ball . i gave into my tears . i went silent as my heart started breaking down . wall by wall . those giant walls i used to protect my heart came crashing down . those barriers i built so that i would never feel this way again was history . i was fargile again . we went silent for a minute . he chocked at the thought of me tearing up . he apologize but at that point i wasn't sure if i still want to be treated the way he treated me . all the screaming , yelling , accusation and drama . for a moment it all seem unworth it . i was still silent without a word . i wanted to say those words but i knew i couldn't . i already started to care for him . never denied that fact . i told him to give me time . he keep on apologizing he didn't gave the fuck up . so i thought to myself if he still have faith in us then i should too . he made silly kinky jokes and i laughed . he told stories and i listened . he made me know that he didn't mean to hurt me and i understood . fighting are just little battles we have in all relationship . the war is all the other things we have to overcome together . he said I LOVE YOU so i said it back . i told him i accepted him apology but he kept on doing so . all the answers i gave weren't good enough . he still felt guilty . i felt sad i cried again knowing he's feeling this way . he said he was so touched that a girl actually cried because of him . i laughed till i got stomach cramps . i said its only tears its not harmful . he said I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU SAD AND I NEVER WANT TO HURT YOU LIKE YOUR EX'S DID . i choose to belive him and i i know that he means it . we made up . we put our guns and booms aways . all our armoars and protection vest . we left them all for another day . hope that day will come with a warning next time .
I LOVE YOU ASTROBOY .
