missing him for no reason all of a sudden . arghhh , what up with me peeps ? i dont get it . i'm supremly confused i don't get what i'm feeling right now at this moment okay ? in the past when we were still together i loved you with all my heart but you never gave a FUCK . i bow down to you like stupid fool . followed your every word , never once got mad at you . whatever you did to me i just shut the hell up and accepted it . but you cheated in me . you didn't kept your word about being loyal to me . so we parted ways but you told me you missed me . you apologize for treating me badly . i accepted it without any doubt . but even then you still hurted me . still the same . luckily a guy came into my life just in time . he healed me slowly form all the pain you leave behind . he stood by me when you never did . he made me smile again . he made me realize that in reality i can't always give my all to a boy like you . a boy that will never see how much sacrifice for your happiness . when we were still together i would cry all the time . you would always get mad for no reason and say things to hurt me on porpose . when you said you wanted to leave me for another i accepted it . i let you go . never feeling any need for revenge . for 2 weeks i cried every night . i knew its okay to feel empty without you there . i missed you so much . i missed wishing you ' good mornig bubu . LOVE YOU ' and ' night bubu , LOVE YOU ' . i felt as if my life was over . i didn't look at any other guy the way i did towars you . slowly i tried to forget you . started to feel better again , started to smile again . all because of a guy i call SUNSHINE . but when you found out that me and SUNSHINE were getting close . you got super mad . you said to him ' aku dah cakap dengan die jangan , dengan org lain takpe ' . why ? why did you said that ? im confused . didn't you already found your happy ending ? the why did you got angry ? i started to think about lots of things . me and SUNSHINE knew we couldn't be together . again i cried thinking about you . me and SUNSHINE hidden our feelings inside and kept it only to ourselves . we wanted to let you forget about me first . we waited for so long but you were still the hard head you were before . still full of anger . still getting mad for no reason . you broke off your friendship with SUNSHINE . i felt totally guilty towards SUNSHINE . you guys have been friends since form 3 correct ? then all of a sudden because of me you guys stopped being friends . other then that i started to feel lonely and down . being single didn't bother me at first but as time past by i hated the fact that i was alone and he had somebody . one day SUNSHINE said to me ' if you rase lonely then couple lah , kesian you tunggu i lame kan , i nak tengok you happy je ' . i cried like crazy tahu ? so touched with what he did . willing to sacrifice his happiness for mine . i took his word . then i started to let go . i let you go i let SUNSHINE go . i just wanted to clear my head from all the memories and start filling them with new memories . so i found someone new . started learning to love again . i hope that the person i curently love will never do me wrong cause i got scars nobody will ever know about .
